Things I'm loving right now...

• Seasons of Love from Rent
• red lip stick
• cinnamon dolce lattes
• this Dian Malouf ring at work that's $880 :/ (i need a rich boyfriend, or a boyfriend in general...haha)
• my girlfriends
• the cold weather
• that even if he's not my boyfriend, he'll still canoodle with me when it's cold out
• my first semester of Grad school is almost over and I'm still alive :)
• my black and brown boots
• Pandora Radio

My Dad had what they call a "silent" heart attack on Wed. :( He was in the hospital until Friday night. I cried like a big baby. Thanksgiving wasn't the same without him. I'm sssoooo stressed with school. I have 4 papers due on Tuesday and I couldn't focus at all! I told my Dad he picked the wrong week to have a heart attack. :) He laughed. He has a stress test tomorrow and a bunch of tests to try and figure out what is wrong. They think it's a connection problem. *sigh* I can't seem to focus on what I need to get done. I'm so stressed. I was super stressed out to begin with. When I get really stressed out I have night terrors. Javier came over Sunday night and brought a pizza and strawberry pie 'cause he knew I was stressed about school. He was awaken at 3 in the morning to me screaming in my sleep. I was sooo embarrassed! Mortified! He was very understanding and really sweet about the whole situation. But it was still embarrassing. Jake knew that I had night terrors and it was something he knew how to handle, so it wasn't embarrassing when I had one. Poor Javier, I'm sure he wasn't expecting to wake up to me screaming in my sleep. :/ I felt awful. But like I said, he rubbed my back and we talked, he held me as I cried. He was sweet. Well that was Sunday...the week obviously got worse from there. lol. Anyway, I've got work to do. Wish me luck.(and say a prayer for my Dad) If I can make it to Wednesday, life will be so much easier!!! :)

i just realized that there are only 4 weeks left of school. i have a bajillion papers to right. ugh. :/

So I was soooo stressed out over this test...and it wasn't all that bad. It's just that everyone talks about how hard Dr.Marini is and how his tests are sooo hard. I actually thought it was fairly easy. I'm sure that there were a couple that I missed, but I'm glad that all of my hard work and studying paid off. So now I have a 3 to 5 page paper on a case study (that I have to come up with myself) and apply a counseling theory to that we've discussed in class due tomorrow. I'm not too stressed out about it. I have tonight to work on it and all day tomorrow (well my class is at 5:45, so all day before 5) I have a pretty good grasp on the theories that we've covered so I'm thinking that I can pull together a case study that has a valid theory applied to it. Have I mentioned that despite how stressed out I am about school... I love it. I love what I'm learning and I'm sooo excited to be in this program! :o) I know that this is only the beginning of the stress that I will endure over the next year and a half...but it's all going to be worth it when I've accomplished this goal.

Other then that, I've been keeping busy with work, I'm working about 30 hours a week. That's alot considering that I'm taking full time Masters classes. Financially, things are getting better. I sill don't have a car...but eventually.

Alright, I'm off to do my homework...

i think i have a sinus infection, or a heald cold. though it doesn't feel like a head cold so i'm going with sinus infection. i feel like my head is going to explode. i woke up at 6 this morning crying cause i was so uncomfortable. ugh. i feel like death.

on a happier note...i love school!!! i know that i'm in the right profession because i'm so excited to learn new things. todays discussion in psycosocial aspects of disabilities was great!! i can't wait to finish my masters! i'm itching to make a difference in the lives of others.

i haven't updated in what feels like a billion years!!! i've been so busy! so what's new in my life...

*my mom had surgery on her rotary cuff, they had to shave down the bones. eek. but she's doing good. still very sore and the therapy hurts her alot. i'm here with her now, she's sleeping...her pain meds make her very tired.
*i STILL haven't registered for grad classes. FML. i have a bit of a financial situation that i'm still trying to figure out. God is good and i know that things will work out.
*still "dating" javier. he makes me laugh and he's been very sweet lately. clarissa calls him my non-boyfriend. :o) he went to vegas this weekend and brought me back a charm for my pandora bracelet that i really wanted. :o) he completely went out of his way to get it for me so that meant alot. i think it was more of the effort then the gift itself that mattered.
*i love having my own place...it's nice to go home and be able to sit on the couch and read a book and not have to deal with anyone else.
*i really, really, really need a new job. my job is killing me. i have a college degree and need to be doing something with it!!!
*i've been going to the gym ALOT and i feel really great. i've lost alot of weight, which is nice. though, i still want to lose 10 more pounds. all possible.

well, i hope all is well with everyone else. i'm going to cater to my mom now. :o) sorry i've been such a stranger...

tonight...negotiating and pillow fights :o)

i've been packing and it sucks!! i have soooo much stuff. i'm trying to get rid of alot of it but it's hard. hopefully monday is a smooth day of moving.

So I got a scholarship that I knew was going to help pay for my Masters. What I found out yesterday is that it's going to pay for ALL of my Masters!!! The whole thing is paid for. Are you kidding me?! My jaw literally hit the floor. And they're giving me $800 a month to live off of! Only 7 people got the scholarship. I feel completely blessed. I have to take full time classes, which is 9 hours. I know that it's going to be alot but I'm completely capable of doing it. And since I'm getting the stipened I can work part time which is so nice...and still be able to save up for a car. I'm hoping that I can work 3 days a week so that I can really focus on school. I should finish my Masters in a year and a half. Crazy! Yesterday was the best day ever!!! Everything is falling into place the way that it's suppose to. I really do feel sooo blessed.

he got me a graduation gift. it was sweet. he pays attention to the details, which i love. :o) i got him a birthday gift and he loved it. it was such a good night. i hope that things continue the way they are. the last guy i dated really screwed with me. this one is sooo different. everything about him is great. he really is a keeper.

we're celebrating jess marie's birthday tomorrow. i hope she likes her gifts. i'm very determined to give her a great birthday. i'm excited to have a great birthday night with her and know that it's going to be fabulous!!! :o)

i found out that i got a scholarship that'll help me pay for my masters. yay! it's awesome!

graduation was great. i got really drunk that night :o) (thanks jess for driving me home)i feel very accomplished, it's a great feeling. and i found out today that i got a scholarship that will help pay for my masters. awesome.

i've met a really great guy. super sweet, funny, very good looking... so far so good. :o) he makes me giddy.

i'm so sunburnt right now. i cant tell you how much everything hurts. i'm dying!!! i didn't think i'd get this burnt. ugh.. i need aloe. sleeping is going to suck!!

So I'm graduating tomorrow. It still hasn't sunk in yet. I'm really excited. :o) Party tomorrow night at Roosevelt to celebrate for those who want to join in!

today i took my last final!!! yay!!! i have class tomorrow for practicum and then that's it. i'm done! i can't believe that it's finally here. it only took me 6 years but hey, i finished. and i got accepted into grad school so things are really looking up! :o) may 9th... only 11 days until i graduate!

Graduate school admission decision... ACCEPTED!!!!!!

i've been really down lately. i can't seem to shake it. i'm sorry to all of my friends who have had to listen to me cry the last couple of days. i just can't seem to get this heavy feeling in my chest to go away. :o( i hate when people turn out to be different then you think they are. i'm really hurt.

i think i'm having a break down...

he makes me happy. happy like i haven't been in such a long time. :o) we laugh and joke and canoodle. i hope that things keep on the way that they are.

i can't even begin to explain how unbelievably stressed out i am. i try to keep myself busy with work and school but when i get a moment to sit down and really think about what's going on i cant help but feel my eyes get hot with tears....

i owe $1500 to school for my emergency loan. if i dont pay this back this month, i wont graduate. all of my hard work would be for nothing. how do you come up with $1500? i would work the bar but i dont even have a working vehicle to get me there. yes, this is the other stress in my life. my car is dead. dead. dead. dead. ::sigh:: and my brother is driving me up the wall as well. i can't handle him anymore. i need to find my own place to live. i'm so strapped for cash... and work isn't giving me any hours. i don't know what i'm going to do. i was going to have a garage sale but i dont even think that we have enough for a garage sale. i have a pile of clothes sitting at home that i need to find some place or someone to sell them too. jewelry?? i could always pawn some of my jewelry. i just dont know... on the upside, i've met a really great guy who makes me very happy. he's constantly telling me that things are going to be okay even though we're both very poor at the moment :o) he makes me laugh, and right about now i need some good laughter. and i applied for grad school so lets pray that i get in. soo.... any ideas on how to get myself out of this rut? i didn't think so. i'm screwed...

I haven't posted in forever. I've been sooo busy. Between work, practicum, and school... I feel like a chicken with my head cut off. Alot has happened. I sprained my ankle, it was really a weekend to remember. Put it this way, Jess and I are never drinking Diablos at Moon Cussers again! And it's still a little swollen. I'm over it already. :o)

So...I'm going to apply for a job in Lewisville (outside of Denton) that is opening at the end of September. It's a job that I really want. I would be a counselor for the Deaf. It's the what I'm going to school for and it's a great opportunity. And if I get the job, they'll pay for my Masters... which is amazing. I'm not going to get my hopes up. I'm just getting out of college and I'm sure others will be applying for it. I'm going to put it in God's hands, if it's meant to be it'll happen. So keep me in your prayers. I'm still going to apply for Grad school here and keep my other options open.

One of my best friends is coming into town tomorrow and I'm really excited. I haven't seen him in 2 years. Spring Break should be okay. I know that I still have to work and I still have to do my practicum, but at least I get some time away from school. I hope to get some sun and at least go swimming sometime this next week. And... maybe a new tattoo? :o)

I can't believe that this semester is half way over. It's CRAZY!!?!!? May is going to be here before I know it. I'm so excited about graduating. I really want to take some kind of trip after I graduate, I think it's well deserved. Alright, I'm off to my last class.

I had the best birthday ever. I was sooo blessed to be surrounded by great friends. Thank you to all who came out to celebrate with me. :) I can't believe I'm 24. Where had time gone? I know that 24 is going to be a great year for me. I'm going to graduate, get into Graduate school and finally really make something of myself. I'm excited to see where this year takes me.

So I'm leaving tomorrow night for Vegas. I'm really excited! :o) I know that I have to work while I'm there, but it's going to be soooo nice to get out of the valley! We're going to see a couple of shows and I'm going to do some mad shopping! :o) yay! I hope to come back with something cute for my birthday. And a fabulous new pair of shoes.

Clarissa and I are going to go see he's just not that into you tomorrow. I'm excited. I need a good movie like that right about now.

Jess, Adi, and I went to Roosevelt last night and we had a blast. I'm sorry Jess if you are feeling worse today because I dragged you out last night! :o) But I love ya and I'm so glad you came out!

Here's to a free trip to Vegas....